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The Long Journey Home
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A Treatise On PTSD For
Former Combatants

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By: Wayne Fowler
Vietnam Veterans and PTSD
"Let There Be Peace On Earth"
Peace on Earth
PTSD Treatise Quoting Mr. Fowler in "The Long Journey Home":
My purpose in writing this treatise was to get as many of "US" out of the "Tall Grass" and back home, really home, as could possibly be done. You know, as well as I do, that I started this treatise too late, many of us have already made that final journey HOME. The suicide rate among our brothers is astronomical. The "dying before your time" is way up there also. So, friend that I have slept with, bled with, cried with, even laughed with, after reading this, help me find those of us still in the "Tall Grass" before it is too late for even them.
former combatants Won't you join us today? Not only can you start on your own Long Journey Home but you can help others find their way also. By reaching out and helping our brothers and sisters, whether near or far, is one step closer to coming home ourselves. The International Brotherhood Of Walking Wounded wants to reach out to all those brothers and sisters in need, trying to come home.

If you would like to join our Brotherhood or help in one of our Missions, click "COUNT ME IN" and start your own journey home. Upon joining, you will receive your copy of the Treatise "The Long Journey Home", and "I support I.B.O.W.W." decal to display proudly! Your membership also entitles you to purchase our concessions at a 10% discount. Also, if you want to purchase a memorial tribute page for a loved one, after your payment is received, the amount of your membership dues will be reimbursed to you. We have a volunteer program in place for all I.B.O.W.W. members. Click HERE to find out more!

ptsd and veterans Endorsements we have received regarding our Peace and Healing Missions here at I.B.O.W.W. and "The Long Journey Home" Treatise:

Bruce R. Tota, from Belleville, Illinois says: "As a former combatant that was lost in the "Tall Grass" for years, I appreciate this opportunity to express myself. Having got to know the Founder of this website almost 35 years ago, down in front of a North Vietnamese machine gun bunker, I can speak first hand about what it is like to be a "former combatant". Even though the years had slipped by between us without contact (34 years to be exact), we are just as close if not closer than we were during the battle called "Indiana". He saved my life and several more of his brothers' lives that day and he continues to go forth to this day reaching out and bringing in his brothers from the "Tall Grass" to allow them to start their "Long Journey Home", as Wayne would say it "really home".
If you have not read this treatise on PTSD, please allow me to encourage you to get a copy and read "The Long Journey Home". To my Irish and Australian brothers, OUR HELP for you finding a true peace and healing is on the way! Contact Wayne Fowler through this site for your copy of the treatise! Now for a little personal business, I know guys are not supposed to express emotion, but YOU my brothers will understand when I say, I Love You Wayne, my brother!!! Bruce R. Tota Suicide Charlie Company 2nd Platoon, 2nd Squad"

David Harkless from Seattle, Washington says: "I am a Viet Nam veteran. I served in the US Navy in the early 1960's. I was in Operational Intelligence on board the USS Constellation. I suffer from severe PTSD as a result of the things I had to do and the things I saw in the Viet Nam war. Even though orders came right from the top, I feel responsible for issuing the orders that officially started the war in the Gulf of Tonkin. Thank you for everything you are doing to help veterans and to raise global awareness of PTSD. For many years, I had no idea what it was even though I was suffering from it. After several years of treatment, I can be more objective. Many veterans in America and the world are suffering silently and alone. My wife and I have searched for websites where we could find moral support and are thankful to have found this one. THANKS! Don't ever give up!"

Simon Sulaica Jr., from Illinois, who writes a column for "The Walking Wounded" says: "Just want to say that I'm very glad to be associated in the founding of this organization. Please know that PTSD is a condition that exists in ALL war veterans around the world. It's effects can be slight or they can be very devastating. American service personnel who require treatment have a number of places they can receive help. This is not so true for our brothers in other countries. It is for them that we reach out to let them know they are not alone. We hope to visit those that we can, and assist them in what ever manner we're able. In some instances, it may be no more than exchanging our experiences with each other so they are aware that what they are feeling is not theirs alone. We are a new organization trying to bring about a global awareness of PTSD on war veterans and their families. We hope to be joined by those of you that feel you can assist us in our efforts. Whether your a veteran with PTSD, a PTSD counselor, a medical professional or just a family member..we will accept your help! Please note that we are a non-profit organization and we will accept all donations small and LARGE! The last thing I would like to add is that before you leave this site, that you send this website to as many other people on your mailing list as possible. Remember that "NOT ALL WOUNDS ARE VISIBLE" and you never know who might need our assistance, either here or abroad."

Gerald O'Dell from West Virginia says: "I served with 'G' Company, 75th Airborne Rangers as team leader for 5 man LRRP teams in Viet Nam from 1967-1969. I am currently 100% totally and permanently disabled for PTSD. I went through my whole life after Viet Nam self-medicating with alcohol, jumping from job to job and not understanding why. In the mid 80's, I heard about PTSD and I thought that was crazy people. In 1996, I blew up at work and threatened to kill a man. I immediately went to my local VA hospital where a psychiatrist interviewed me and told me that I was ate up with PTSD. Since then I have attended weekly group sessions with other combat vets, as well as remaining under a psychiatrist care.
When I stumbled across I.B.O.W.W. I joined the brotherhood and received my copy of the treatise, I now find myself reading it over and over. I highly recommend the Treatise to any individual who has or may think they have PTSD. I also feel it is an essential tool for family members of a veteran dealing with PTSD. Respectfully, Gerald R. O'Dell."

Liz O'Dell, Gerald O'Dell's wife says: "Feeling there was no place to turn, that no one in the civilian world would understand what problems I was having coping and dealing with my husband and his PTSD, I became rather frustrated and kept my emotions to myself. After finding this site and reading the treatise, I now have a better understanding what emotions my husband is going through and that WE ARE NOT ALONE!!! Once I started reading the treatise, I was unable to put it down, as it related so "close to home", not only on what Gerry was feeling but what I was feeling too! It opened my eyes to the many diverse emotions that my husband was having, and what he was going through could not be "turned off" like a faucet. After joining IBOWW and reading the treatise, I now understand many of the symptoms better and have a better understanding "why" he feels the way he does. I want to encourage other family members, such as myself, to reach out and learn all you can about PTSD because the more you know, the easier it will be to cope and deal with your loved one. The treatise is an excellent choice for gaining more knowledge and understanding the "whys" and "why nots" you so often ask yourself when it comes to dealing with this illness. Thanks IBOWW for reaching out and helping me!"

Michelle Holtby, Director of I.B.O.W.W.'s Public Relations says: I've never been a member of the Armed Forces and I've never been in combat. But recently, I've been diagnosed with PTSD, otherwise known as BiPolar Disorder, which is why I'm writing this. I met Mr. Fowler a few months ago. After talking with him extensively about his founding of I.B.O.W.W. I became very interested in becoming a part of the organization. One of the first tasks that Mr. Fowler allowed me to do was to proofread the treatise "The Long Journey Home." As I was proofreading it, I found that even though I'm not a former combatant, there were a lot of things that were pertinent to my situation. At this time, I haven't had the time to fully reread the treatise. But, just from the few things that did catch my eye and were relative to my PTSD, I have found them to be very worthwhile and rewarding to my situation. I look forward to serving other people in this organization and to learn more and accomplish the goals set out by the organization. One of the main things I learned from this treatise was that in order to help myself, I realized that I need to help others. I.B.O.W.W. is a wonderful way to help me heal myself by helping others who suffer from PTSD. I want to encourage people that read this, that even though like me, you may not be a veteran, you or somebody in your family may have PTSD. I want to encourage you to help us help others by joining our organization. This letter is written for the staff of I.B.O.W.W. I want to thank you for making me feel welcomed aboard and I look forward to being part of the team.

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PTSD treatise Sample A Few More Excerpts Taken From "The Long Journey Home"

    Table of Contents

    1. Help Me, Please Help Me...
      "Guilt is a killer, it destroys humans better than any physical piece of metal ever could, and it destroys in essence your soul, your will to survive as a human being."

    2. The Long Journey Continues...
      "But friend, the biggest guilt of all and the one that gives us that bond for life is the feeling of guilt for being alive! We have eaten, slept, bled, cried, laughed, and anguished together, but we have been unable to follow our loved ones when they leave us for the last journey HOME!"

    3. Back Where We Started...
      "Which is worse, waiting to be shot or being shot? Having experienced both I would choose being shot rather than waiting for something to pierce my body. Why? Because it is more traumatic not knowing when (the fear of the unknown) than it is feeling the actual physical pain. This answers the questions of why people that were not there that certain day, but were in a combat zone, never the less suffer from PTSD."

    4. Shoot Low Thar Ridin Shetlands...
      "Correct me if I'm wrong but wasn't that you I saw sitting with your back to the wall in the restaurant the other day? Everybody remembers the Skipper sleeping in the "Nam" propped up on one elbow so he could listen for movement while he slept."

    5. Why Don't You Just Trust Me?
      "As any war the first casualty is truth and the subsequent trust of each other. This makes the healing or the peace almost impossible because you go round robin with the closeness of the situation." "The closeness that you once shared automatically now has to be earned, correct?"

    6. Steel May Break Your Bones But Words Will Kill You...
      "When we first came home to this "World" granted things were DIFFERENT! It seemed like the whole country was pissed at us. I mean, I thought I had seen anger in the villages of Viet Nam, but these people (protestors) were hell bent on mounting some of us on a wall somewhere. Little did I know that I soon would be "expressing" my anger to the world and specifically my family!"

    7. Doesn't Take Me Long To Look At A Horseshoe...
      "First, like our other wounds, we must open it and clean it out from the inside. We know that to un-deny something we first must acknowledge it. Once we have realized (faced reality) that we have been in denial, the rest will fall in place very rapidly."

    8. I Have Met The Enemy And The Enemy Looks Like Me...
      "Moving on, we on the other hand, after coming back to this world as mere babes as it were, seem to right off the start self-destruct. We drink too much, we take high risks in our finances, we take life threatening risks and on and on. So lets just call a spade a spade - not a shovel - and say it, 'we constantly are trying to destroy ourselves'. There, feel better now that you have faced up to it? Why my brothers and sisters do we do these destructive things to ourselves?"

    9. Limbo, Limbo How Low Can We Go...
      "The point of bringing up DEPRESSION in this treatise is to show how it can affect you and your loved ones around you totally! We that had wives and families (which was all of us in one sense or another) when we came back to the world never knew that we were bringing back a deadly affliction to share and to inflict our own loved ones. The sad part is that even after we inflicted those poor souls and moved on (divorce) we kept inflicting everyone that we had a relationship with and/or that had feelings for us."

    10. The Missing Link (The Homecoming)...
      "As we all have witnessed, at some point or other, the destruction of other humans we naturally become less human. Always remember this, 'we never made war we just experienced war'. Do not fall into the age-old trap that if you act inhuman at some point in your life that it does not and can never take away forever your humanness. Your Maker makes you and your Maker does not make inhuman beings!"


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